i'm sorry

currently listening to: You Won't See Me Crying / Passage

i'm sorry. i shouldn't have posted that comment. i guess this means goodbye then. glad to have met you. i didn't think a person could have that much effect on one's life for such brief a time. i'm sorry. thanks po for changing my life. i know this wouldn't change a thing, pero i miss you po. actually, i wanted to post so many things but i always find a reason not to. and all that i have written end up being saved as drafts. this is one of them.

Ubiquitous (05/20/2005)
You are everywhere I go, every person I meet, each face I see. You are there even when I am alone – especially, when I am alone. And in my solitude, I find you. I always find you. And amidst all the irony, strangely, I find myself smiling. Maybe, this is what they call melancholy, when you are not in control, when you find yourself in this mess when everything is sad and yet so beautiful.

i miss you so badly. walang araw na dumaan na di kita inisip. mula sa paggising ko sa umaga hanggang sa pagtulog ko, ikaw ang naiisip ko. sinubukan kitang kalimutan. but everywhere i look, i see your name. i always keep on finding you.

but i was not finding you. because nothing's there which was not there before. the fact is, i was searching for you. i was looking for you. that's why i always find you even in the tiniest scraps of my day.

i'm sorry tin. i hope life is treating you well.

i wish i could have written a better farewell letter. but you won't be reading this anyway. sorry.